The Wall

I'm not sure I like this one, but it's written so I'm sharing it!

I see the wall before my eyes 

My soul despairs and my heart cries 

It's so immense I want to run, 

‘Til my legs fail and my chest burns 

Or slump slowly down its cold stones, defeated

But something deep inside me stirs 

A quiet voice that gently spurs 

Me on to fight, to see the world, 

Beyond the fear, the griping cold 

But then the lies rise up again, repeated

The wall's so high, so wide so vast

I've not succeeded in the past 

I can’t believe I can be free 

Darkness is closing in on me 

And yet the whispering voice will not be silenced

Just push one stone the voice suggests

Just try and I will do the rest

And so trembling, weak and tired, 

I shove without the strength required 

To move it but it moves and I'm elated

I can see a glimpse through the gap

Of fear removed and with a clap 

I dare to hope that I can stand 

And walk in peace through son drenched land 

A future in which satans plans negated

If I can just create a space

That I can crawl through on my face

I can get to the other side 

And then up to my feet I'll rise 

And dance, sing and live where my God intended

So with hope, I push the next stone 

Eager to explore my new home 

I lean and strain with all my might 

I really give it all my fight 

But nothing shifts, still trapped I cry, dejected

That voice within me starts to say 

'Don’t try alone, that's not the way 

I planned for you, you're not to crawl 

I'm going to help you beat the wall' 

So I follow my masters lead; corrected

He points to each stone I must tackle, 

Each one a trial, a fierce battle 

And slowly, surely I start to see 

The whole wall weaken in front of me 

Then I step back to praise and cheer 

As down does tumble all my fear 

As I walk forward the pain beneath 

My feet, and breathe a sigh of relief

I feel the strength I've built and smile, my life’s redeemed!